Adventure

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And it is easier to curl into your body like a dying moth, cursing everything that is wrong with your life, claiming it is too much and you can't you just simply can't. Calling yourself names you do not mean but hope others will think you do and will in turn try to reverse your vocabulary because they care. And they do care. Saying, "I give up" because it is safe to pretend to give up in that moment, it feels real but not real but a place for you to be and not exist, for everything to go away. To want to disappear, imagine yourself gone, fantasize about your body splayed in uncomfortable poses and police tape and cameras flashing and people sobbing in the background, to do it but not really.

It is easier, yes.

There may be nothing glamorous or painfully beautiful about getting yourself out of bed to do dishes or pay bills or look for a job. It may be dull or dreary. Your heart may feel like it is trapped inside the window of your ribs, beating along sluggishly because it must at least do that. You may want to shove everything you own off their shelves and leave the debris there because you do not care, and certainly can't be bothered.

But in those moments of scrubbing or filing or simply moving your body out of your bed the wings in your heart are stirring, however gently. And the more you move, the more you let your heart beat, the more you stretch out your arms and imagine you see your blood traveling throughout your body, the more air those wings feel and if you just clean that dish hard enough it will catch the wind and you will be up, and up, and up, even if for a mere moment.

Would it have been easier if you had just stayed in bed? It might have been. But you will never fly staying on the ground.
Ellen Page---side of head

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I did a friends cut. If I cut you no hard feelings please, we just either don't talk or we don't have much in common. I also am having a hard time keeping up with my f-list. Sorry guys <3
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If you still have me friended on your journal and I have not friended you back, please unfriend me. Thank you.
Ellen Page---side of head

From Now On



If I've never talked to you before I'm less likely to add you. If you see me in a community or another person's journal, strike up a convo with me there, and I'll probably be way more likely to add you! And if not, tell me a little bit about yourself in here. I just feel weird adding people I don't know much or anything about.
Ellen Page---side of head

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You know how they say fire, earth, wind and water are all forces of nature that while very useful, are also very powerful and must be respected?

I think they need to add superglue to that list.
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    angry annoyed yet humbled
Ellen Page---side of head

ZE GODS a poll

So Zoe asked me to do a poll. So--here it is. It's my first one, so...yeah. OKBYEtaketehpoll

Poll #684766 let's see how many of the same things we like ok? ok.

Which of these do you listen to?

Ani Difranco
0(0.0%)
Bright Eyes
0(0.0%)
Death Cab for Cutie
1(1.6%)
Fiona Apple
2(3.2%)
Frou Frou
0(0.0%)
Imogen Heap
0(0.0%)
Rilo Kiley
0(0.0%)
Tegan and Sara
0(0.0%)
The Postal Service
0(0.0%)
Tori Amos
0(0.0%)
Jewel
0(0.0%)
Anna Nalick
0(0.0%)
Goo Goo Dolls
0(0.0%)
Alanis Morisette
1(1.6%)
Natasha Bedingfield
0(0.0%)

Which of these movies have you seen AND liked?

The Breakfast Club
0(0.0%)
The Matrix (and the others...or not...who cares)
0(0.0%)
Garden State
0(0.0%)
Chasing Amy
0(0.0%)
Clerks
0(0.0%)
Signs
0(0.0%)
The Lord of the Rings trilogy
0(0.0%)
Titanic (shut up or I will kick you I can't help liking this movie)
0(0.0%)
Girl, Interrupted
0(0.0%)
The Color Purple
0(0.0%)
The Little Mermaid
1(1.5%)
Napoleon Dynamite
1(1.5%)
Bend It Like Beckham
0(0.0%)
Fight Club
2(3.0%)
Saved
0(0.0%)

Which of these random things do you ENJOY

chapstick
0(0.0%)
Harry Potter
0(0.0%)
the smell of rain on pavement
0(0.0%)
the ocean
0(0.0%)
berries
0(0.0%)
ketchup
0(0.0%)
sleeping in
0(0.0%)
the smell of windex
0(0.0%)
wearing silly funny clothing because it's fun
0(0.0%)
going BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP
1(1.4%)

Recommend a band/artist/song, a movie, and tell me something you enjoy that wasn't on that list.

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